Sunday, December 28, 2008 @ 12:50 AM

Saturday, December 27, 2008 @ 10:44 AM


i was just talking to him yesterday.. since i was rather so free while waiting for hx.. i went to a secret place and we started to talk..

i was telling him of why is it that i dont feel so motivated, i dont feel so excited about school and all the things around me anymore. it use to matter to me so so much until one day i have decided that i need to stop working so hard and neglect the people around me. thats when things took a turn. i told him that i have my dreams and goals, but why is it that i dont feel like achieving them anymore. this really explain the reason of my still uncompleted 2000 word report.

but he simply told me this,

"if you wanna soar like eagle, you dont hang around with turkeys"

he really have no intention of insulting of my friends. but i was shocked and that sentence was too much to comprehend.

i begin to question,

"if i dont hang around with turkeys, how am i ever gg to help them to be an eagle? if i dont bring myself down to that level, i will never be able to help them cos i am way too high up. Now you say i should not hang around with them?"

then he said,

"when i mean hang around with turkeys, i am not saying u dont talk to them, u ignore them and leave them alone. but simply, your values and our character should not come from their values or principals. your mind must only be ruled by the bible and nothing else. you can still be their friend, but you must know that u shouldnt be influence by them. your values and character must be only influence by the eagles. when you visit the turkeys, you dont change your eagle nature. you are still able to soar after that"

this is really a revelation to me. God, i am so amazed and stand in awe of your wisdom.

Friday, December 26, 2008 @ 9:29 AM


MERRY BELATED CHRISTMAS TO ALL!

its been a great christmas! with surprises like my BRO CAME BACK FROM THE U.S! omg! and he got for me a coach wristlet! hahhas. i was so so so so so so surprise that he manage to rush back from U.S. cos he told us that he would be back only during Jan. which is when he will miss christmas and new year! hahhas. i cant help smiling whenever i mention about it! cos its been so long since i received a surprise like this. hahhahs. also, matt finally came back from london!!!! i miss him so much during the holidays!

anyway, a big huge thank you to all who wished me and gave me presents for christmas! i really appreciate every single gift! the cookies, cupcakes, the chocolates, notebooks, anything and everything! but one thing that i am eternally grateful for is the LOVE you guys have given to me! really. i mean it from the bottom of my heart. and it was matt that makes me realised it. he texted me a simple merry christmas when he came back. i was like smiling with glee when i saw that message.

i shall noe get back to my 2000 word club and resort report. i need to churn out nonsensical yet intellectual stuff.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008 @ 2:25 AM


ANGRY

Thursday, December 18, 2008 @ 2:31 PM


HELLO EVERYBODY!

guess what?!?!?!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I PASSED MY FINAL THEORY TEST!!

omg! i am way too happy! cos maybe because some of friends failed at least 1 time before they pass the real thing & i was out at the airport being a faithful fan thus did not study much. i know this is nothing luh. not like as if i can drive now. but u must know, who talked to me the night before i had my ftt. thats the bomb. hahahas.

Thursday, December 11, 2008 @ 12:20 AM


manage to catch up with jackson for a while after bs. i feel so bad that he has been asking me out yet i've been really busy. but i really enjoyed the time spent. we talked and most importantly, i laughed my heart out with his jokes. damm funny. anyway, talking and all, right now as i am sitting down in my room, i have decided that i should really stop procrastinating in my heart and get down to do something great for God.

you know.. recently i've been gg through one tough season. nothing good has been happening and just like that jeff said, "when everything fails, you just have to cling on to the edge and just hold it there. with all of your life, you grab on to whatever that is left" i really feel that way.. with so many things spinning together, i can only trust. trust him to see me through this season. busy with so many things around me, i lost touch of myself. of who i want to become. who am i and what dreams am i working so hard for. i truely believe and hold on to a conviction that

"every single day, hour, minute or even seconds of your life should draw you closer to your dream. if it doesnt, then you have really done nothing "

keep dreaming. yes. just dream. dream till limitless because no one can ever stop you from doing that. the only limit that dreams have is really YOURSELF. break that barrier. step over that line of fear and you will feel FREE.

yes. thats where i want to be.

Thursday, December 04, 2008 @ 12:56 AM


insincere apology is worst then not apologizing at all

seriously. thats like one of the principles of my life. i hate it when people apologize for the sake of doing so. i hate it with a passion. i hate it with all the chanels in this world add up together. i am not making sense but i am just trying to say, I ABHOR IT. period.

no buts. no however. no because.

you wanna apologize, say it and just keep your mouth shut.

its like telling you,

"i am sorry i slap you just now BUT your face its too ugly that i needed to slap it."
"you cant blame me for you being ugly right?"

seriously. give me a break.

dont get me wrong. i am not desperate for an apology. i am just so amazed at how people can apologise with BUTS added at the back. i am seriously amazed at how they can make it sound like its your fault when its theirs and they think that the apology in front is EVERYTHING. apology is just a word. what i mind most is the attitude.